dear all.. i will stop updating my blog for a period of time.
the reason why the blog was set up was actually for my friends to get updated about me..
but now, i think that for friends who really wants to know what's going on around me..
they can ask me directly when we chat.
other than that..
pics tell a thousand words, dont they?
more often than not, i will upload pics onto FB...
so i think i can do away with this blog already since i've not been uploading any pics here either.

im hooked on to playing guitar!
but it makes my fingers so painful as well.
no pain no gain?
im really bad at sight reading.
must really remember the notes after exams!

the wake which i've attended, once again, reminds me to cherish my loved ones even more.

other than this blog..
im starting to keep a diary on which i can pen down during my quiet time.
today shall be the first day that im gonna do so.
it acts as a reflection time as well.
there are so many things on my mind..
but i cant say it all here..
after all, some privacy is needed.
dont know who is reading here..
i need my own space as well.

if i keep on saying the same old things..
i will be like a naggy old woman..
i dont want! lol!

met up with karen for our KPL..
since it's the first time im doing it.. it was quite a horrifying experience for that few minutes..
but after im used to the process.. it was kinda ok.
then went over to raffles city's bdazzle for our ear piercing!!

like finally after so many months.. near to a year already i think.
when i asked xiaobao for comments.. he said that it's ah lian..
but in the end after so many months i still went ahead.
she was getting her second piercing as well..
chloe had her first piercing!

the girls were asking me to have 3 on one side and 2 on the other..
but i think 3 is abit to many.. so just had one more and it's enough.
:)

went to a wake of my relative whom we see each other once a year during cny.
the atmosphere was so down.. even i was affected even though im not close with the person.
.............................
rest in peace!

since the day i made up my mind not to visit that blog ever..
im so thankful that i really stopped going there.
dont wish to get updates about that person, anymore.
i had never wanted to give up on that person..
but since there's miscommunication and misunderstandings..
and im such a stubborn person.. not wanting to give in..
so be it.
it's a sad ending.. thinking how things can turn out this way.
but i believe there are much more things in store for me..
the only thing that i can say, is to be forward looking.
no point thinking about the past.
but at times when i think about it, it can get really upset that someone i knew for so long can actually turn their backs on you.
it's time that i removed this(these) person(people) out of my world.
erase them.
so that i wont get hurt anymore.
let me be selfish.

FRIDAY!
cant wait for tomorrow to come.
i've started mugging for exams already..
please let me have the motivation to be discipline for the coming week.
it's gonna be a busy busy week since i have to accompany grandpa to NSC and also attend TT's training workshop and go CF classes and study study study!
but promised small e that i will meet him after my exams. :)

got alot of thoughts in my mind.
shall blog about it after the exams..
which is around two weeks time.
and hopefully i still remember it.. else it would just mean that it's not important stuffs.

after exams..
shall spend more time on my keyboard and guitar..
wanna perfect them before i move on to other instruments.
of course.. shall hit the gym on a more regular basis!

the things that happened..
things that i see..
are pushing me beyond my limits to strive for more!
after exams!
it shall be an exciting summer holidays!
cant wait for it to come! :)

went to visit zhi cong at nuh with the guys after school..
didnt expect such a thing will happen to one of us, so suddenly.
get well soon my friend! :)

was so super hungry that we grabbed mr bean to eat before our proper dinner.
i think.. i dont really fancy mr bean's food.
probably the soya bean should be ok.
went back to yew tee to eat the fish soup..
first time i ate the fish soup at kopitiam.
quite nice. :)

hoho.
and kw and edwin walked me home.
12 years and still counting..
my primary school friends are one of the group of friends that are still so close.
time flies.
how will we be like in another 10 years time?

haha only till recently then i realized that there's cute and talented guys in my church.
of course.. pretty ones too.
one of my hobbies is to look at handsome hunks and pretty babes! :)
im slowly getting active in church. hehe.

they have been saying that my phone is always in my hands..
and before i finish replying one message.. another comes in. lol!

bird nest's is loveeeeee!!
im gonna turn in early today. :)

ah! no piercing done on friday!
the girl was late and she forgot to put on her earring also..
so we had to change to next week instead.

the g2000 event was quite interesting..
was being approached to be their model..
haha but they dont want to sponsor the clothes that i gonna wear..
so i gave it a miss.
their offer of $20 voucher doesnt work since i cant use multiple vouchers at one time.

grabbed some yami yoghurt to share before we head home reluctantly.
she had to revise for her test tomorrow..
while i had nothing much else to do either.

my aunt had asked me if wanna drive out for supper..
and go fetch my cousin at the airport at 1am.
but gosh.
that's really late.

had guitar lesson as usual on this lazy saturday.
daddy came over to pick me up. :)
drove to grandma house with my aunties and cousins.
had dinner over at this korean restaurant.. which i thought might be not bad.
but it turns out to be so-so only.
took a turn to holland v to grab some tubs of ice cream before sending my aunt and cousins home..
my aunt came over to my place to get my spare laptop home since her's is spoilt, i think.

SEE.
that's the convenience of car!
yes, you can cab.. but how long do you wanna wait for cab..
and there's no privacy when talking.
im getting dependent on car.

didnt feel like paying attention in class today..
so i surfed the net looking at the sgcarmart and the different webbies for cars.
damn chio lah!
especially sls amg!
haha the batman car that many would call it to be.
audi tt and audi r8 is so alluring.
lotus is still a toycar feel...
slk is still such a beauty!
the designs are so captivating!
i should read up on their specs when im free during the hols in order to have a better understanding of each car's performance.

after ed.. went to town for some late lunch/early dinner with daph!
we wanted to get out of school so much..
but luckily im only left with one ed presentation as mentioned..
so i was really kinda relax! :)
she brought me to this ramen restaurant at mandarin gallery..
soothing ambience.
the food is yummy as well!
walk walk a little bit at ngee ann city before she went back to school and i go for body combat class.
tried latina flava today..
super cmi.
couldnt follow the steps.
but i really would love to learn how to dance.
:))))))

passed by forever 21 and saw some tops that i like.
but hands were full..
so shall shop tomorrow instead.

happy girl.

my bro called and ask me how to book movie tix online..
mummy tells me that he's going to uss tomorrow!
im wondering if he's gonna go with a girl since he sounds quite angsty when he couldnt book the tix.
haha i hope my bro got girlfriend..
then that girlfriend can be my sis. haha!
my cousin told me she just quit her job.
hmm. might as well since things hasnt been good over there.

small e was contemplating to come find me when i had ed meeting in school till late.
but i see no point since he's not using car..
hello. he stays at pasir ris!
it's so duper far la!

once tomorrow is over.. things will get better.
cause i think im quite confident that i wont be the one presenting for ed next week.
so meaning im 90% off from projects and assignments!
which also equates to 90% of fun and enjoyment before i start mugging for exams.

had a long chat with my dear kw that night..
chat until he suddenly realized that it was 2am already.
so i quickly went to sleep since i had to wake up early the next day.
it's been a long time since we chatted on phone for so long i guess..

in the end, karen couldnt meet me on sunday cause her wedding lunch reception went on for hours.
so i had to do shopping myself and no piercing done.
i was so reluctant to get orange top.. but no choice since it's for presentation purposes.
as usual.. dad came over to fetch me! :)

the other day i went to pump petrol and top up cash card..
i seldom pump petrol so i didnt know how much to pump to reach the full tank capacity.
all along i wished to have my own car..
but of course not at this time since the coe is crazily expensive.
if only i had done so last year..
but anyway.. oil prices been going up and the expenses is increasing..
probably just having a family car to drive around..
having friends who have car to drive me around..
that would suffice.
the convenience of having a car to go to places around like geylang for supper.. bedok or changi..
or going to ecp to chill out at the beach..
makes things so much easier.
and especially since im a car lover!
just by looking at the cars parked at smu carpark..
it sometimes can be quite an eye-opener. lol!

looking forward to friday!
gonna shop shop and attend a workshop with karen.. and finally get our piercing done!

small e has been asking me when we can meet up..
haha just like what he said.. probably on weekends since he can use car..
nelnel just messaged me haha!
gonna find time to meet up with this buddy too!
haha and i still owe kw his other half of the keychain and korean food!
i still remember la! haha!

not only i have sleep-debt.. but i also have date-debts.
but it's ok, since the semester is ending soon.
but it also might mean that working life soon..
as in internship/part time jobs.
need to get some income to supplement my spending!!

i didnt update for the past few days cause kw was telling me how powerful the internet can be. lol!
and edwin demonstrated that to me yesterday.

made up my mind on certain things that i will stop doing.
habits are hard to change.
but i know that certain things cant go on..
im not gonna spend time to change people's thinking.. nor change myself if people thinks that i've changed.
for the past few months things has been as it was.
it has come to this situation whereby explanations are not needed.
clarifications are not needed.
as long as we dont cross each other's path.. things will stay the way as it is.
im grateful for the things that i have now.

haha yesterday when small e called.. i was complaining to him that i have to go back school on weekends as well..
and he asked how i managed to handle all the things in the past despite my busy schedule.
well.. sacrifice some and take some.
but i think i sacrificed quite alot that time.
kinda drama.
and i think i was really sleepy yesterday that he said i was saying things which he dont understand. lol!

anyways.. went to school for meeting today..
stayed until 6plus before leaving school with karen.
went to cityhall to get some free drinks..
having to wait for 30 minutes..
we decided to go to wisma to collect my ring first instead.
luckily we did.. back at cityhall.. we still had to wait for another 15minutes..
so slow!
gonna go buy clothes on sunday and probably do the piercing with her.

life's been so boring these days.
it's all about school.
need to have some fun.
PURE fun!
i miss going to cityspace to chillax.

ethics presentation over!
ed learning journal done!

was trying hard to stay awake from 2plus onwards..
in the end, instead of staying in school to wait until meeting @ 7pm..
went home first to take a nap..
took the car and went to school for ed meeting.

met up with naz and together with daph..
we went over to bedok area for dinner/supper.
it's been the late night meetings that we were able to meet up together with naz and have some chilling/catch up session.

back to school over the weekends, again!

Aiya.
Why for this semester, I have always been the last speaker.
It only makes me more flustered as I have to keep to the timing and make sure it does not exceed time limit.
But when you are so engrossed in delivering the speech..
you tend not to take note of the time, at all!
And all the points would seem to be important points not to be left out..
and end up I would panic on the spot.. though not too obvious.

Usually I would have done up my ED individual assignment on Tuesday and do the final editing and checks on Wednesday.
But due to the time constraint, I am still working on my ED assignment.
It seems like I'm able to write better under this unhealthy pressure..
since I still need to set time to practise for my ethics presentation tomorrow..
and I'm not 3/4 way done.

Coincidentally, met the girls today.. just as my meeting ended and their class ended too.
They said that my whole face shows them that I really had a hard time in that group. lol!
And it was so obvious that when I'm with them, I was much more at ease and happy. haha.

gonna end this abruptly and go back to do ED.
:)

only after i switched off my laptop..
lied on the bed..
then i realized that i havent blog for the day.

im always looking forward to t&d lessons..
the classmates and the module itself is fun!
but when it switched over to ocd..
the whole atmosphere changes.
no, im not so looking forward to that.

went to jurong point with mummy.
did some shopping.
but my mind is still all about ethics and ed.. ethics and ed..
haha i must rush out the work by tonight..

so i skipped church today.
was doing on my project.. but it seems to be taking a long time.
before i could finish it.. i had to go out already.

went to fetch my aunt and together with dad, we went to church to fetch mummy.
they dropped me off at school before they go over to chinatown to buy things and eat lunch.

went to meet karen.
we registered for some cozycot events.
spent the whole afternoon at orchard central..
and dinner at a random ramen shop at 313.
it doesnt tastes as good as the one kw recommended..
and the crowd wasnt there even though it's dinner time.

went back to school and my parents came over to fetch me.

haha lucky karen had asked me to accompany her during break for tomorrow..
for lunch and also to touch up on our ocd slides.
hehe, else i might have gotten eric out since he's not working tomorrow and i've been always not able to make it to meet up with him..
but anyways...
i need to go wash up and start on my project already.
yes, i know you asked me not to overwork.. haha but i must work.

gosh. hope i can do up everything fast and go to sleep.
else tomorrow gonna be a long long day since i have lessons from morning till evening and..
then at night i've got meeting.

bless me.

haha oh ya.
darling bought be some gummies.
haha i bought for her ice cream.
just realized it's the school holidays for them already.
haha..
how i love her so much!
such a sweetie pie! :)

so i had to reluctantly sacrifice one guitar lesson.
reached school just on time.. but had to wait for nearly an hour before we started discussion.
the internet connection was so bad that i was kinda handicapped for the meeting..
cant do much research.

was quite bored also.. so went down to find karen.
gonna go out with her tomorrow and chat more.. lol!

meeting ended kinda later than expected..
went to bugis with jason for dinner before heading home.

haha so sorry eric!
will have our jap food soon!

haha my dear jj.. we shall meet up for jap food, say next week.
shall see when our dear friend kw is free also..
yes kw, i know i still owe you korean food..
haha but you dont dao me hor!
JAP food first!
we shall attack the sashimi as usual! :)

Woke up.. had my honeystars while watching tv on sofa..
back to room to start doing up the skeleton for my ED assignment..
went to prepare and out for lunch with mummy before leaving for school for the consultation with Prof.

Went for eyebrow threading before going home.
Eric has been giving me random calls to chat.
Haha but I'm so sorry that I've been so caught up with projects that always cant meet up with you.

Yes, I know..
I havent been a good friend these days..
practicing double standards..
rejecting some dates.. resulting in.. xxx
I still owe some dates with my dear friends.
Let me finish up my things on hand first k..
the whole of my summer holidays can be for you then.

:)

I think I'm stressing myself out over minor things..
just so worried that I cant meet my deadlines.. hmm.. probably not exactly cant meet my deadlines.. but not being able to have enough time to really do them up properly.
No matter how, it still makes me worry.

I've learnt my lesson.
Never to bid for classes alone.
I'm super regretting it now.
But, what's the use?!
Just hope that the sem ends faster.
Only my dear buddies know.. or will know.. what happened.

Wanted to have another piercing... walked into the shop..
but the salegirl was damn not polite.
Unhappy.
And thinking, how could I leave my 'life' in her hands.

a random conversation with my second bro..
he was drinking the vitagen collagen drink..
"that LB Original flavour tastes weird. eeeks!" I commented.
"ya loh......" he replied. "no wonder you drink one then never drink already.."
me: "i got drink!! i drank the one and only rose flavour..."

I went to take another flavour, Elderflower.
me: this one tastes better!!
he: really meh..
me: yahh! drink mine and try lah!
he: eeee dont one!
me: use your straw lah, ben dan...
he: got one more left what.. i go take that one to drink, ben dan! -.-

After he drank the elderflower one, I told him again,
me: this one tastes better right.. that one tastes eyer!
he: ya, but not nice i help you drink.....
me: dont need!

Woke up at 7am.. prepared.. and went out for CF classes.
Instead of going for bodycombat, tried out zumba fitness/toning..
it's quite an interesting class.
Can consider going for it again.

Is age really catching up with me?
It is one of the topics that was talked about with my friends the other day.
After the first class.. was contemplating to go for bodypump..
in the end I went.
I guess I wont be going for that again.
All the weight lifting.. damn shag.

Woah.
It's another 2 months that I cannot be under the sun.
The nurse strictly says, AVOID.
And I have to be back for another review in 2 months time.

Could not make it for my classes today.. so went back home.
I fell asleep on the sofa.. and mum kindly woke me up, ask me to go back to my room and on air con to sleep. :)
Haha seldom she will ask me to on the air con in the afternoon..
the most I really cannot tahan the hot weather then I will go on it.
Then, she woke me up in time for dinner.. before I left for school.

Sometimes it really feels scary to drive.
I will start imaging all sorts of stupid things.. like getting into a major accident.
I think I will be damn shock.
Or what happens if I knock onto someone or another car?

Helped out Naz with his marketing project..
realized that sunshine bread is really tasty amongst the rest.
:)
Then, went for meeting.. which Daph and I was late for an hour.
I think we are getting a bit nowhere with our company for the project..
so we had to fluff something out for the optional progress report to make sure that we are on the right track.
It ended an hour later.. and Daph asked me to accompany her for dinner.
Haha, so I called Naz along as well since he hasnt eaten.
LALALA.. and we drove to holland v.. everything with fries.

Initially I thought it's just a fries shop.. just as the name suggests.
But the variety of food it offers is quite alot and reasonably priced.
Surprisingly, the food is really delicious!!
I will surely go back there again for their sandwiches!
Probably someone can help me with the fries, since it's really quite a big portion.
Unless I'm really hungry.. else I think I will be damn full after eating that.
And oh! Their desserts is really nice!!!
Everything is good.. just that the service could have been better.

I think I'm trying to find a suitable diary/book for me to write in.

YEAH!
90% done for T&D and OCD projects!
Now, it's only left with OCD's presentation and we're done! :)
I love my T&D classes!
Ok, so I'm left with Ethics and ED projects to go.
Two seems little, but it adds up to ALOT of things.

Please pray that I dont get bullied by someone, especially since I've heard some many negative stuffs about that person.
Just let me endure for it for two weeks.
And I will never bid for classes alone ever.
I'm loving to bitch with my girls. Haha!

Back to NSC tomorrow.
Gonna wake up super early again.
Then, bring my grandpa and aunt there as well.
Have to accompany grandpa for his consultation..
hope I will be in time for CF classes! :)
I need to get the motivation going...... I will need to think of......

Shall go home afterthat and take car to go school at night.

I'm loving all the things that are happening now.

I need to do more planning.

Reflection

I slept until 10plus today.. knowingly/unknowingly skipping church.
Continue working on the report before I had a nap in the late afternoon.
Woke up, went out for dinner with family cause of bro's birthday.
Back at home... helped to start doing on powerpoint slides and thinking whether the girls will accept TT's offer.

Over the past two days, interviews were conducted on several people for my project.
Meanwhile, I also heard alot of stories about the industry.. which sort of maps with what hunk ge had once described to me about certain issues.
It also made me reflect and think about alot other matters.
But luckily, being drained out at the end of the day, I tend to be able to sleep relatively well.

HAHA what happened today was what I hoped for in yesterday's entry.
Just that we still yet to finish our project..
but the happy thing is that we need not go back school tomorrow..
will be doing it at home instead.
And so, I can join my family for the dinner! :)

Oh. And I missed my Jap buffet with liji today.

Dont expect me to do things which you reckon that most likely I would not do.
So, stop showing me your attitude.
And, dont act as though you are very close with me, when you are not.
Especially when I'm busy with 101 other things, just get things straight to the point and stop wasting my time.
It just further irritates me since I'm getting cranky these days.

Need to do a check on my behaviour..
but so far I think I'm still relatively ok.
I still love my friends! hahaha!